Enough

I remember the day I stepped in school
Initially I was a freakishly absurd fool
Running around with everything i got my hands on
Every tool
My parents got angry, teachers felt I wasn't good enough
To prove them wrong i tried to act like a sincere kid
Noticed that clever guy properly, tried to become exactly like Sid
Focused, really hard i studied
I started topping in class now
As i expected, elders suddenly started loving me somehow
I just started enjoying this fame and wow
When I noticed that kids around me started hating me somehow
I tried to ask them its reason like a fool
What's the matter? You are not COOL !
Then i tried to combine both selves
Tried to be better than today, tried to improve myself
Tried to be good at play and studies, burdened myself
During the same time a girl walked in
We became friends and i felt like god have forgiven all my sins
But then again i had forgotten the basic rule
I was neither 'enough' nor 'good'
Life change and me along with it
Confident and fit
Improved my every bit
Still this world saw a flaw, being talkative
Friendships broke & one more 'No' came along with it
I saw everything changing but one thing never changed about me
I wanted every one else to be happy
My own pain I couldn't see
I helped them all to be their greatest self
But in the process I didn't notice myself
I was being used away and then was treated dry
Every one around me said a in lie
That to them i mattered
The lie which made my heart shatter
I wonder what will happen when i die
Will they even shed a single tear or care to cry?
But now i will try to be me
Will try to keep my chin up
Because no matter what i do
To this world
I'll never be enough

Copyright © Ishwar Zore | Year Posted 2019

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