Empty Womb

I was born to a mommy just as sweet as can be she kept me warm and safe held me close, she never stopped loving me "when I grow up Im going to be just like you" have a baby to love feel the other side of that special bond so true but the world works in mysterious ways good people will lose while terrible mothers have their babies taken away a womb destroyed by cancer given to me at birth never given a chance to experience the natural way of things here on earth "so what","no biggie", "you'll make a great aunt" they say your brothers having a baby come on, let's celebrate this truly is a joyous day! what's wrong? aren't you happy? there's so much planning to do the baby will be here soon we're all so happy and you should be too mommy's planning a baby shower for my sister in law she'll be a grandma soon why should she lose out because of my serious flaw but she doesn't understand why I'm so blue having to watch mommy doing all the things she should be doing with you I try so hard to put on a happy face rather than pout but I'm just not strong enough when its tearing me up from the inside out can I ever stop mourning the baby that will never be my broken womb forever destitute, childless and empty.