Empty Soul

an empty bottle in my hand look what ive become addicted to feeling this way my lonely addiction has won not yet day light and i still look for more searching endlessly for lost money, gazing at the floor to buy me what i need because that is all that matters drink has took over me my life is now in shatters still i cant fight it, its all that is on my mind this is now my life, looking until i find i end up sitting in the gutter smelling rotten on my own i wish someone could fix me and take me to place called home but i am just a shadow in the darkest clouds who the kids like to tease they laugh when they see me staggering, falling to my knees in my head is numbness all the pain is blocked out but when im sober it trys to crawl back in and im scared without a doubt look what i have thrown away, a family a job a home now its just me and my drink, walking the streets alone maybe one day ill wake up and it may all be a dream but for now all i can do is carry on, searching for what i need