Ego

Jaded by a few 
If only you knew...
What it feels like...
To be neglected like a rusty, old bike...
I'd hike a thousand mountains
I'd cry a thousand fountains
Just to see you flourish 
That is my only wish

My ego is misunderstood
I'm on my own and good
I just need space to recollect myself again
I just want you to understand... I'm not always that reliable pen...
That quivers in your palm of intellect
I am a ruined ego, a worthless reject
No one will ever love me
Patience is the only key
To unlock another opportunity 
Love will come and go unfortunately 

Your ego is beyond brilliant
I'm jealous and oh so hesitant 
Wish you were here to lift me up
Wish you wouldn't show off your glory or your fame...all that is but a broken china cup
You seem comfortable in your success 
I'm already fed up with all this craziness
But, I will get over it
Envious, I must admit

My ego is destroyed by solitude and sadness along with it
My reputation is as small as an ant; pity, it won't grow in size...I won't throw another childish fit or a mischievous misfit
I will just be a man 
I am not a boy anymore 
You think you can...
Break me to the core?
In your precious dreams of lies, maybe...
In your devious plans of deception and envy?

You have such a huge ego...
Yeah, so full of it, it's not even funny
You sure know how to put on a show
Your lies are so tasty like Blue Bunny 

I won't fall into your trap of deceit
I won't hear your words that you repeat
I don't want you to wreck my ego again...
Still wondering where mine has been...
Somewhere in the ground
Hiding in the rowdy crowd without a single sound 
Deep down, I'm spell-bound
By your fortunate fame of happiness abound

I will find you
I will wait for you 
I will catch you
I will earn back my dignity 
I know vengeance is on Him...
But, times like these look so grim...
And I, frankly, need to do something about it! Don't grieve!
It's not like I lack faith or hope...so, cope with it or leave

And do me a favor
Leave my ego alone!
If you can, you harsh sir,
I would like to have this ego journey on my own... alone... without you, always on your phone and me, left as a deprived, dry bone
I don't want you to taint me with hatred
I don't need to envy you or feel this dread
Burn away our egos into ashes and embers of nothingness
Churn it away into the sea of something brand new with sincerity 
Because...
Egos are only temporary 

Just pause...

Think before you do and you'll be truly happy
With or without a reputation of fluctuating desire
Scorch it with our rare and passionate fire
We can't be free with our ego, getting in the way and leading us astray
We can't be happy if our fame is an undying flame night and day
Get out of this bondage that lacks radiance of deliverance 
This comfort zone of pleasing many...
It's breaking us, yet we feel pride, confidence and arrogance 
Roam, regardless of our egos, without a worry 

We have ourselves to satisfy
Forget the others for a time...
You and I, I can't deny, 
We look extremely sublime...

Jaded by a few...
You already knew
What it is like 
To be in my shoes of a worn-out ego and earning first place in the worst reputation... awarded for having a million dislikes online - discouraged by the cyberbullying freaks on social media; it's almost like feeling the aftershocks of a lightning strike 

Our egos deserve better than this...
Hardship and madness distress...
We need to be rich in joyful bliss
Never again, seeking company from fickle success...fraud in excess...more or less...

Let's be positive...
Not agitated and negative...
I fear that your ego might give...
Mine a bad outlook or framework...
All I ask is for you not to be a jerk!

So, keep your naughty ego to yourself, mister!
Or...I will manipulate your reputation by giving it a blister...
Ooh, beat that!
I think the cat got the rat under the mat...
You got caught 
With a fake, know-it-all reputation
Fame and fortune isn't everything, yet it was something you sought and fought over, giving it your best shot
Our egos are tossed to and fro in anticipation... it's surrounded by expectation and rejection's temptation 

Fame's flame will die out
Like our egos no doubt
Pick a route to trek on...
Before time runs out and opportunities are gone

Copyright © | Year Posted 2018



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