Drowning

I starred at the clock is ticking
don't even care it's three in the morning

one more step to insanity
they kicked me out of reality

looking fine but i'm cold in the inside
hesitaion or depression? it's hard to decide

too many love but i live in lonely
giving, loving but i found no glory

I'm the master of doubt
i let my life covered in dark clouds

they told me to breaktrough
find any light to see through

i don't know what's keeping me
more hesitation is all i can see

many years i let the darkness lurking me
but i keep on fighting so they won't defeat me

in my prayers I asked faith to allow me
let me be what i want to be

faced me to a door for me to open
get me out from all of these burdens

there have been empty chapters in my book of life
fear has captured me from being alive

my life is in danger 
but i won't let myself live in anger

i want to break free
see a smile back in me

i want to seize the daylight
no more anticipating in any lonely night

I am a stranger among the familiar faces
battled in a dreamless field to gain some grace

drowning in the deep blue sea
to find the true me.

Copyright © | Year Posted 2009



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Date: 12/16/2009 3:59:00 PM
Thank you for sharing your amazing poetry with us today Mony. Love, Carol
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