Drowning

I starred at the clock is ticking don't even care it's three in the morning one more step to insanity they kicked me out of reality looking fine but i'm cold in the inside hesitaion or depression? it's hard to decide too many love but i live in lonely giving, loving but i found no glory I'm the master of doubt i let my life covered in dark clouds they told me to breaktrough find any light to see through i don't know what's keeping me more hesitation is all i can see many years i let the darkness lurking me but i keep on fighting so they won't defeat me in my prayers I asked faith to allow me let me be what i want to be faced me to a door for me to open get me out from all of these burdens there have been empty chapters in my book of life fear has captured me from being alive my life is in danger but i won't let myself live in anger i want to break free see a smile back in me i want to seize the daylight no more anticipating in any lonely night I am a stranger among the familiar faces battled in a dreamless field to gain some grace drowning in the deep blue sea to find the true me.