Driving At Dusk

How did I get here why am I on this highway I don't remember why why would I drive to Denver what does the sign say up ahead Coeur D'Alene that means I'm going north that's good right, tell me north is good when do I turn when do I go east when do I turn right? this highway I know it been here before been here so many times don't remember when don't remember why when did they put in those switchbacks I wouldn't have come this way if I'd known they were here would have taken a different route drive rough dog in my lap he doesn't like switchbacks doesn't like drive it's ok I say I pet his head soft as a puppy's at the bottom it's gravel the road stops I have to get out nowhere to go where do I go when the road runs out the dog pulls away I say stop don't pull stay my stomach hurts getting worse why does it hurt so bad and where are you going baby baby baby wake up wake up he says it's all over it's over they got it all he's leaning over me, they got it all it's benign you're good it's all good my stomach hurts I said they give me morphine I was dying I tell him I saw it I was driving there I remember I've seen it before how could I see it before how could I know it so well because I don't know it at all he looks away, dream about death all you want baby he says but you're going to live good enough for me I said don't want to remember but where's the dog I reach for him he's not there, been on the other side six years now but not, I think, tonight