Dreams

Is it okay to want to leave it all?
I take off my skin and rest for a few days
Collecting my doubts and fears
Underlying insecurities 

I'm beginning to feel as though i'm not worth saving

I've given up on the pursuit of chasing my own happiness
One can guess that's why I've fallen yet again
I close my eyes upon this revelation

Just a few hours

My eyes open in a space where nothing really matters.
 Walking around this blissful space i come across one thing: a chair

As i sit in this chair i dream
A dream within a dream
Of everyone i loved wishing me well 
And then they're turning away from me

If they all have faith in me why don't i have the capacity to pick myself up from my fears of inadequacy and incompatibility 

My breathing stops

My eyes jolt open and i find myself in the blissful plane
There's people in my space
But i don't know their names
I try reaching out but they wont let me trough 
No one is hearing me 
I don't know what to do

Now i'm pacing back and forth lost in a world only i live in
I wanna be there for them 
I wanna see them smile
They need to understand 
I will be here a while

Back in oblivion dreaming about 
That dream I'm in finally hit the ground 
I can feel reality giving in

Wearily on my side decide where i don't want to stay
With a simple thought in my head

Just a few days...
Copyright © | Year Posted 2016

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