Downsizing

It's not easy keeping yourself together when there is a part of you hiding away still darkened with fear. It's been curled up there for years. Then there's that other part of you who can't keep still, creating havoc as it charges around your head demanding answers, bulldozing certainties until there is nothing left except rubble strewn across the mind. Other parts play silly games, or put you down or flicker on and off in a constant state of not knowing what to do. They're the ones that stutter on the lip of every day, running down your batteries until there's not much left of you. You wake up each morning feeling depleted as if half of you has gone missing in your sleep and what remains is a bag of parts that no longer fit. Like children you've given each a name, fed and provided them with shelter. Worn out by the labors of their want, you hope one day they'll grow up and go. Then, you can think about downsizing into the less cluttered spaces of the real you.