Doubtfully

Emotionally wrecked something is wrong within my brain. Hard to keep from slipping, going insane. Feeling as tho everyone is picking on me. Cant find the truth, I have no reality. Broken inside, from all the self doubt. Cant find my way, I cant get out. Panicking, thinking once again I'm to blame. Emotionally wrecked, something is wrong in my brain. Truths and lies, they begin to blur. Knowing they'll blame me again, this time for sure. Wanting, needing to hear their laugh, their soft touch. But knowing I've already ruined so much. Erasing the pain is nearly impossible. Knowing inside that I am responsible. Maybe if I pretend it didnt happen, just hit ignore. Truth and lies, they begin to blur.