Don't think I'm in Wonderland Anymore

Still lost- Even more than Alice Can't seem to find a way out this All i been searching for is happiness But each way I try is disastrous Playin different characters like an actress I've worn a mask for so long Been everyone bt me No need to practice All I've done my whole life is pray Just to get past this This whole world is plastic Every where I look People either holding donation baskets Or overflowin caskets Ain't no way I can stay calm The sht way too blasphemous Every breath I take is cancerous Tryna figure out what kinda trance this is Or if I'm almost out of my dwindling chances