Roxanna Johnson Poet Blank verse

Don'T Judge

Should I ask for forgiveness 
Or continue to hold this blade against my pale skin?
I know Ive prayed and asked for forgiveness before so this time it is a committed sin.

I can't help that so many people hurt me
most do it without realizing it because I'm to nice to bring it to their attention
I let them say what they will and cry about it later holding it in around family

But soaking my pillow case at night 
holding my arms around me to stop the pain from radiating through the room
I hate this feeling it just brings me gloom.

Except for the blade that brings the blood rushing warmly to the surface
A sign of life deep inside when I feel so numb other wise
Some find this stupid and dumb but i don't care because you don't know how i feel 
inside.

I sometimes want to run and run and run
But i can't because there isn't anything new to run to
but you..

You... who hurts me and doesn't know 
You.. who i think i love sometimes but feel confused and therefore hurt some more
You.. who tells me to look forward and step through life's open door.

But I can't because I have a problem
with this blade I cut my wrists, just a little 
to feel a rush.. A problem yes 
But none the less
I'll pray for this to all cease in my life
but it will continue and in the end ill feel like hell..

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Cc Rh June 22, 2011 at 7:10 AM I know how you feel. I was much like you once, except for the name. The blade's pain was the only feeling I had. Then my friend, Taylor, found me. She told me that I do matter and that I wasn't alone. I just found this, and now I believe her. I am sorry if you don't believe me, but I will be here; where you least expect me to be. If you ever need me. You will never be alone, not as long as I am around. Please check TWLOHA's website out, because I know it really helped me out. - Callie