Don'T Expect Me To Be Home To Say Welcome Back

The empty space you left in my life Is still unattended The time I have on my hands Due to your absence I am using it to think Drawing conclusions As to why I am here thinking at all What have I done? What didn't I do? Lack of answers brings about A whole another set of questions And unending thinking This is the best way I can explain my sleepless nights Lately the house seems bigger but also smaller I've noticed the ceiling creeping up on me Lower each day, leaving me feeling claustrophobic I've adopted the habit of taking deep breaths To avoid suffocating on having lost you Missing you as much as I love you Dealing with the strength of both emotions Fighting my feelings, fighting myself Trying to accept your course of action Because it is what it is It's you who walked out And as the days pass Sadness turns to anger And I take it out on everything That reminds me of you Your pictures, your clothes, your shoes I stopped looking after your plants There they are, there, dying of loneliness If you won't come back then they should die I don't want anyone to believe I am hoping You'll come back I don't want to wait, so my feelings should die Together with your plants Starving like my heart I'm no fool for love Missing you will pass as I learn to think you less The sun will shine for me tomorrow, Can't say the same for your plants though