Don'T Expect Me To Be Home To Say Welcome Back
The empty space you left in my life
Is still unattended
The time I have on my hands
Due to your absence
I am using it to think
Drawing conclusions
As to why I am here thinking at all
What have I done?
What didn't I do?
Lack of answers brings about
A whole another set of questions
And unending thinking
This is the best way I can explain my sleepless nights
Lately the house seems bigger but also smaller
I've noticed the ceiling creeping up on me
Lower each day, leaving me feeling claustrophobic
I've adopted the habit of taking deep breaths
To avoid suffocating on having lost you
Missing you as much as I love you
Dealing with the strength of both emotions
Fighting my feelings, fighting myself
Trying to accept your course of action
Because it is what it is
It's you who walked out
And as the days pass
Sadness turns to anger
And I take it out on everything
That reminds me of you
Your pictures, your clothes, your shoes
I stopped looking after your plants
There they are, there, dying of loneliness
If you won't come back then they should die
I don't want anyone to believe I am hoping
You'll come back
I don't want to wait, so my feelings should die
Together with your plants
Starving like my heart
I'm no fool for love
Missing you will pass as I learn to think you less
The sun will shine for me tomorrow,
Can't say the same for your plants though
Copyright © Shagesa Mattheeuw | Year Posted 2017
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