STILL  NOT  DEAD     ( no kids allowed 2 read)

This morning I took my med.
taking more than my dose.

I am still here thrown in bed,
Lifeless and nobody knows.

I am still alive I am still not dead
I don't think I succeeded my overdose.

Should have cut my vain instead,
or stuck a whole ounce my nose.

To scared to put a gun to my head,
that would have been very gross.

Couldn't even stand it if I bled,
Stupid, me now I find a hose down my nose.

Still not dead,
Regret  the day you propose.

The day I said "I DO" I dread
The feelings that came, I let nobody know.

Thinking of ways of dying instead,
holding my breath is all I show.

All this started on the day of our  wed,
imagination took over making my  mind blow.

Finding my self here  still not dead,
Who said suicide  is easier than a DIVORCE !!


=( Not a fact, just humor over my marriage! )=

Copyright © | Year Posted 2010

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Date: 7/9/2016 8:18:00 AM
I can feel your emotion. Dark. But a good read.
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Date: 5/24/2015 6:10:00 AM
Skat I can totally relate to this poem - I'm going through a divorce and it is NOT easy! good to know that im not the first and wont be the last to go through it very nice poem! thanks!
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Date: 5/23/2015 3:31:00 AM
Very strong and incisive write on an attempted suicide caused by depression over a failed marriage. This reminded me Dorothy Parker's "Resume" "Razors pain you; Rivers are damp; Acids stain you; And drugs cause cramp. Guns aren't lawful; Nooses give; Gas smells awful; You might as well live. " A sad view of divorce for some, and a very good write from you.
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Date: 10/19/2013 11:17:00 AM
Hi, good evening once again my dearest Skat! Coming back to read one of your outstanding poems before finally logging off tonight. I'm so glad I've found this stunning fictional write of yours. A heartfelt write with a happy ending;)) Big hugs to u! thank you so much for sharing & again for everything. Good luck & best wishes to u & your family. More blessings, too. Pls. say Hi to your dearest sis for me.TYSM! Good night! lovem4evr Leonora
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Date: 7/7/2013 12:30:00 AM
yes! :-)
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Date: 6/1/2013 4:11:00 PM
glad to hear it's only fictional, Skat, and hope your marriage is happy in reality
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Date: 5/27/2013 11:59:00 AM
SKAT put this in the contest...Poems to keep you awake at night....,.its a winner....think they said change the title...
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Date: 5/26/2013 11:31:00 PM
Very different in a very good way.Please do me a favor?Give PD a hug and tell her SMILE.Tell me what she says.Have a great day.Colleen
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Date: 8/5/2010 9:04:00 AM
the sweetest revenge you extract from a jilted lover is to live a good life with absolutely no acknowledgement of the past...as if it never happened that's happiness from a hellbound heart
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Date: 7/23/2010 4:25:00 AM
oh divorce.....I can relate to that feeling...not because I went through it but my friend does...and it's sso painful...
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Date: 5/25/2010 9:46:00 PM
Divorce does strange things to people and people do strange thing in a divorce, good write,,,Thanks on Eye Ball 2...last of this saga you might like the old 5 Y ranch,,adios lol..Danny
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Date: 5/18/2010 3:30:00 PM
You're such a true poet!!! Laughs, Susan
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Date: 5/14/2010 7:18:00 AM
Grest poem Irma..i loved the humour and the message in this poem dear friend..........Charma
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Date: 5/12/2010 6:24:00 PM
poetry saves! good work! Irma! jimbo (psss. I know a bit about this subject!) jimbo
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Date: 5/11/2010 8:22:00 PM
Is Marriage or suicide scarier? Glad this was fictional humor. Vince
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Date: 5/10/2010 1:19:00 PM
well, those who have been there know that it is not easier...well done.
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Date: 5/4/2010 12:56:00 PM
Great Write Irma Hole, but if the truth be told, I'm just leaving comments on all your work freely. There's just no way I can comment on all of your work if I was to give everyone a read. I'm just leaving you comments randomly, and then maybe you can take the number one slot away from PD. My newest and most favorite arch enemy. Always luvin U, Your Kiddy-Pooo.
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Date: 5/4/2010 10:16:00 AM
great to know it's not a fact, suicide is a serious thing, im out of my mind, there must be a deeper meaning for it.im crazy, suicide is still no good.the day of your wedding you said, i wonder if you were happy even for a moment):i can ony comment so many people today, im sorry i havn't commented back for so long, but i should be back on wed. or thur. and post new poems too.by the way, im 17.and actually love punch actually was my imagination, not a dream!i'll read more poems soon!-Always
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Date: 5/4/2010 8:36:00 AM
this is an intense poem.very good job, i like.
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Date: 5/3/2010 6:21:00 PM
Cheer up! Read some more of the fine poets and poetesses on Poetrysoup and Moontown cafe. Hang in there. I wish they still had Zena on TV. I have a friend but I doubt she likes Xena. Peace & Blessings Matthew Anish
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Date: 5/3/2010 6:18:00 PM
thats pretty intense with a twist of humour for sure!..niice job!
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Date: 5/3/2010 3:19:00 PM
Been there my friend!! It get better and better a times goes on...glad you liked "Temptation"
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Date: 5/3/2010 3:14:00 PM
Well u covered all the bases and all the basics too.. my BBF Irma.. dear sweetie.. this is awesome and so true.. both are ugly suicide is quick ..divorce is forever and ever amen... but after u adjust better off for the experience and the growth a divorce provides... I have had two ... and been widowed once so life itself is not easy but its better than the alternative... haha..as u so brilliantly wrote today... with luv.. from the "Sweetheart"
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Date: 5/3/2010 1:31:00 PM
I love the mix of dark humor in this, Irma! Well-written...Goes to my favs...suicide is easier...Peace, Audrey
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Date: 5/3/2010 11:09:00 AM
From the poetry I have been reading today I can see the weekend handed out a lot of inspiration. I enjoyed reading your poetry today and wish you continued inspiration thank you for sharing Irma. Love, Carol
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