disordered

am i going crazy? those words will consistently ring out in my head like a bomb that has just struck land sometimes it feels like you're walking on eggshells forever i am labelled as i am unbalanced unstable my head is so loud but so quiet at the same time like the silent whirring of tv static head-splitting chattering is buried deep within my brain they are just parts of me i am not insane just disordered i begin to disassociate and ill detach from this place maybe soon ill function properly maybe you'll realize i am not insane and just coping how did i end up this way?