Cecilia Macfarlane Poet Quatrain

Dismayed

What was going through your head
When you decided to end your life
Did you consider your love ones at all 
Leaving behind your sons and wife

Failing to show up for work on Monday
Not calling or coming home that night
Leaving your family frantic and scared
So cruel of you to leave them in this plight

You were reported missing to the police
Your car found on Tuesday near Niagara Falls
Witnesses seen you jump in the icy waters
Just thinking about it.....my skin crawls
 
Three weeks later, your body still not found
Your wife is still struggling to stay strong
Posting pictures of you in happier times
Sorrow you left behind will be lifelong
 
Now your boys will grow up fatherless
Never understanding the reason why
Damage done to them emotionally
Tears of confusion and anguish as they cry

A small community remains shell shocked 
The awfulness of it all is so hard to digest
The reasons why we'll never truly know
May your tormented soul now be at rest

12/ 09/ 2013
*A sad and true story, his children are in my son's school.

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Jack Horne March 11, 2014 at 3:48 PM very well written but sad piece, my friend, and awful that it's a true story

Richard Lamoureux February 25, 2014 at 8:57 AM I was hoping you finished the two you started. Let me know when they are posted. Have a great day.

Donna Jones February 18, 2014 at 10:21 PM Very well written Cecilia....sounds as if it affected the whole community your son included....wow...this is a horrible thing to have to wonder the rest of their lives....too bad....God bless and keep them...thanks for sharing as prayers can go up for them...

Robert Pettit February 18, 2014 at 7:13 PM Suicide is not the right way to leave this world. You have described everything very well with some good rhyming.

Andrea Dietrich February 18, 2014 at 4:02 PM Hi, Cecilia, it's always so good to know you are here at Soup. STay a while and post some new poems for us.

Anne-Lise Andresen February 18, 2014 at 1:03 PM I lie, if I say I remember this poem Cecilia. . . read many, many poems after this .... a sad story .... from our "cruel" world - No new poems in the new year?? - Take the pen in your hand :)))) - Thanks for the nice visit to "my Emma" which is also from the "real world" - Hope all is well with you - Have a enjoyable day. - oxox // Anne-Lise :)

Tim Ryerson February 18, 2014 at 4:45 AM Oh me oh my Cecilia, so sad and so shocking but expressed so well here by you...Yes, suicide is the ultimate act of selfishness yet I can identify. An age old saying...'There but by the grace of God go I'...

Chuck Melugin February 11, 2014 at 11:30 AM Dismayed is an excellent work, taking cause and effect to the ultimate. You are a great writer, my best, chuck

Richard Lamoureux January 13, 2014 at 1:46 PM Hi Cecilia, long time no see. I hope all is well with you. I am looking forward to reading more of your poems in the new year. Hugs Rick Richard Lamoureux January 13, 2014 at 2:12 PM Yes I have been great, started a new job, finally got my book published and am getting ready for a small winter get away. All in all life at the moment is pretty good. Cecilia Macfarlane January 13, 2014 at 1:59 PM Hey Rick, yes been awhile since I been on here, not much time to write or read poems lately : ( ....started two and never finished them, hopefully I will get back here more often. I have been well, thanks, how about you?

James Kelley December 27, 2013 at 9:45 PM this is heart wrenching...well done.

Ken Carroll December 27, 2013 at 9:40 PM Hi Cecelia, A truly poignant write.. Ken

Poet Destroyer A December 24, 2013 at 1:38 AM Cecilia,, Guess what? , The end of the year is approaching :) and there's no way I'm letting this year end, without dropping by with SMILES and CHRISTMAS CHEERS. Thank You for making this a great year for ALL OF US. --- May magic fill your days and all your dreams come true this holiday season. MERRY CHRISTAMS <3 Love Linda -The Sweetest Poet Destroyer

Anne-Lise Andresen December 23, 2013 at 5:43 AM - Thank you for sharing this poem with me - very well written,Cecilia ! - Wishing you a peaceful and happy Christmas - Many good wishes for the year 2014! - oxox // Anne-Lise :)

David Williams December 17, 2013 at 8:57 AM Hey sis, this is a heartbreaking write and unfortunately it happened to a very good friend of mine as well, he left a son and daughter and wife, is it selfish? have a Happy and Peaceful Christmas…David

Andrea Dietrich December 16, 2013 at 3:28 PM wow, you really put it strongly and I wish these kinds of people could find a better way, and yet I think they have to be extremely depressed to get to this point. So was this based on a very recent event? SO sad!! Cecilia Macfarlane December 16, 2013 at 7:46 PM Yes, just a month ago now. I was at the falls two days after he jumped celebrating my birthday on the Wed., Nov. 20 and did not find out until I returned the next day, glad I didn't find out until I got back. My heart goes out to his loved ones.

Honestly J.T. December 16, 2013 at 1:57 PM Over and over we are reminded of how fragile life is when someone dies. Especially, when it is someone close to us.

Eileen Manassian December 10, 2013 at 10:22 AM Oh dear. Oh dear. How much should I say or reveal? Depression does take away the ability for a person to be thinking clearly. I know it doesn't make sense to those around, but for the person there.....in that dark tunnel...unable to cope. Sometimes it seems the only "logical" thing to do. You think...family will be better off without me. I'm only a burden. I do the wrong things. I say the wrong things. I'm more harm than good. God knows the heart. He is merciful. Powerful sad write, my dear. Richard Lamoureux December 10, 2013 at 10:26 AM That could never be true Eileen. You are loved!

Poet Tacito December 10, 2013 at 8:47 AM A deeply heartbreaking read...I'll never quite understand it myself. It just such a selfish thing...especially when you have family close to you. Strong writing. Cecilia Macfarlane December 10, 2013 at 9:42 AM Thanks Drake....the why of it all baffles the brain. He had a loving family, good job and a nice house. Depression won I guess : (

Richard Lamoureux December 10, 2013 at 7:27 AM This is eerie, many years ago when I lived in Ontario one of my clients had a receptionist who stripped naked and jumped from the top of Niagra falls. We were all shocked. She was such a nice girl and she had seemed so happy. We never know what people are going through. Well written poem Cecilia. Richard Lamoureux December 10, 2013 at 10:25 AM I had no choice, my Dad liked to move around. He had a restless spirit. Cecilia Macfarlane December 10, 2013 at 9:38 AM Wow! You certainly get around, lol. Nice though : ) Richard Lamoureux December 10, 2013 at 8:10 AM Kitchener,Waterloo, Kirkland Lake, Virginiatown, Matheson, Lamable, Bancroft, Parry Sound, Northbay and Thunder Bay. Waterloo was the last place. Cecilia Macfarlane December 10, 2013 at 7:54 AM Thanks Rick, it was a difficult one to write. Until a body is recovered the family is in limbo, on the flip side what if it was he that tipped the police and he skipped the country to start a new life, one never knows. What area did you live in in Ontario? Hugs