Destruction

There's some sense in this, There's got to be. Seeing so clearly, just choosing not to be Aware, silence throws me off guard, Nothing hurts more than anything. They warned me about you. I blocked out the good advice and Smiled at the lies, all the lies, Your mind, your words, and then there's reality. I welcome the comfort. However much sympathy, Can't drown out the truth, screaming, tormenting, It's my fault, my fault, my fault. Oblivious to my own power, how can one person So unintentionally bring about such Destruction? Piece by piece, actions, consequences, I meant it, but I didn't mean it. Still I burst out, crashed down on these victims and Tore their lives apart. Whilst all the while, my back was turned. So many months of saying sorry, a thousand apologies Make no difference. Drifting on, things get A little worse, every day. Lifetime of good intentions, morals, Washed away. One wrong move and I'm done for, Whispers I can't hear, looks I can't be imagining, Reputation slashed. As if that's a priority. You, all that is you, drained away, you Broke me down, you stamped me out, until I sucked The listless life from you. Cheap, childish, Not deliberate. There's nothing left to salvage, but I Beg you not to leave. Your time to go is beckoning, Or so you'll have me believe. And you warn me in Blank soulless tones, when you die I shouldn't grieve. Are you just a drama queen? Or am I just naive?