Desensitized

I'm used and abused, Discarded like garbage. I must be insane. I'm made to feel like scum, Boy you do a good job of that. I live in pain and misery, Day in and Day out. I've been betrayed, I've been made fun off. Mean comments thrown at me. I've been told I'm not worthy, Only you are, As if you were the king or something. Thoughts in my head race by, Feeling like I'm going to crash. And you wouldn't care. My life I feel is not as important as yours. My feelings and thoughts are irrelevant. Yours is the only one that counts. I'm going bat crazy, I can't find anything to numb my pain. Drinking, and drugs, Is not an option. It won't get rid of these problems. I'd would wake up from my living nightmare, And relive it all over again. How can I numb myself? I can't. I take and take, All the crap that's thrown at me, And in the end, I'm still better than you. I show compassion in everything I do, Where you show nothing but, hatred, and tantrums. You may think you can break me! But I'm not a piece of crystal you can shatter and throw away. I may be numb, You make me feel like scum, But I'm fierce, And will walk away. With my head held up high, like a lioness protecting her pride.