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Depression Allows None of That

My wailing has turned to keening I cannot stop; I am despondent. Fully reversed in my feelings. My confidence has disappeared. I cannot do this! I scream Only it is shrieking. My house is silent, except for my screams of despair. No one to reassure me; to lift me up. It is the time I should be reaching out to friends. My depression will allow none of that. My black curtains are closed, locking out the sun A ray of hope or optimism cannot reach me here. The phone has been ringing for three days. So I put it on airplane mode, Reveling in my rage, Fanning the flames of despondency Until I am scaring myself The dog tries to cuddle, but I turn her away. Living my hurt in the deepest well I can find.

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Kim Rodrigues

Date: 6/2/2020 4:32:00 PM

You must be...turning the dog away too! Feel better!

Caren Krutsinger
Date: 6/3/2020 5:05:00 AM

Not true of me right this second, but often true of me. The Gemini mind is either flying or in despair. Crazy for some, usual for others.

Sara Kendrick

Date: 6/2/2020 4:18:00 PM

I hope just a write and not true depress that you are experiencing. Surely there is someone to who you can reach out if it is you. Sara

Caren Krutsinger
Date: 6/3/2020 5:05:00 AM

It is not true of me at this second but when I get stressed it can be totally true of me.

Ann Gilmour

Date: 6/2/2020 3:30:00 AM

Bless you dear Caren, depression is all consuming, but there is always a light in the darkness, so search for that light dear friend. I adore your painting by the way, what a talented girl you are. With love and hugs Ann xx

Caren Krutsinger
Date: 6/3/2020 5:06:00 AM

Thank you so much my friend. I appreciate your visit.

Connie Marcum Wong

Date: 6/2/2020 3:13:00 AM

Caren, I can relate. I usually write upbeat poems but lately this vegging at home is getting to me. I liked your poem. I am sure it speaks to many. My good news is my daughter went back to work today. I hope you find cheer through poetry. Blessings xxoo

Caren Krutsinger
Date: 6/3/2020 5:07:00 AM

I am so glad she got to! I would give anything to go back to school. I have been reassigned to two new schools next year, and HOPE we do not have to do online schooling.

Swetha Vangaveti

Date: 6/2/2020 3:01:00 AM

I went through this phase for about a week last month. Of course I'm able to come out of it quickly bouncing back to the routine state of affairs. I hope you have come back too!!! Poetry is bliss!! Love from India!!

Caren Krutsinger
Date: 6/3/2020 5:08:00 AM

Thank you so much Swetha. Love from Kansas. I live in Wyandotte County. There have been 271 Covid 19 deaths in the entire state of Kansas and 78 of them have been in Wyandotte County. Why I am not depressed about this is anyone's guess. I am grateful I did not know any of these people.