Demented Walker

Is this life in full color and clarity? why did i yearn for the unknown? Now biting back chunks of regrets and no thank you's! I am no snow white and this no fairy tale love story. This is my reality unsure and insecure, is your reality different from mine? Or does yours also bring you to your knees? Sunset dreams turning into ashes at my feet. No candyfloss clouds , no pretty little songs of beauty and peace! Is it pretty how i used to slit my wrists and slash at own flesh? Did it look good as the blood dripped and wounds turned into scars? Self inflicted gashes of raking fingers towards sanity! A mirrored reflection of tears of harmful words. Some my own others gathered by the bags i wanted left empty. No pictures today i feel a little ugly distraught and disfigured. Lips parted for screams never ushered. Self pity no longer needed. Feeling sorry not fitting to this situation brought on by undeserving un-shed tears! Cornered rocking chair back and forth in the poisoned air. Mocking insanity right in the face of untold truth of my state. Don't worry i wont let it slip. Remembering the sound of release as it drips. Sorry no thank you's filling every pore. Just a little crazy at the core. Pointless slumber exhale its over for today. Circled starting up again unsettled when i wake!