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I say I find myself trapped in some sort of sadistic paradigm With my eyes closed she’s still deciding whether she should delete this baby, I guess she’s on borderline They’re getting closer; I can feel their sharp needles creeping down my spine Whatever happened to freedom? Why do you think your life, is more important than mine? I say, this self-interest cannot even explain… I say, this disgusting self-interest has turned into pain… What am I saying..? This is more than pain Why do you want to delete women, was I not well behaved? I swear to God, if I could swear to God, if you delete this damn fetus you will not be forgave! But at the moment I’m just, trying to get you off of my, developing mind But at this moment somehow, I can’t get you off of my, developing face Facing these problems is like pleading a case, I guess you just pleaded guilty cuz you wanted me deleted and erased Erasing this baby is fine but remember you’ll never, never, erase that mistake Is that all I am to you women? Just some little mistake Mistakenly I’m cursing this disillusionment, mistakenly your cursing my existence I say most days it’s easier just to cry and say I’m okay Instead actually telling these strangers, what I really want to say. Saying this makes you often reminisce about how life would be and sometimes I got to keep my mind off that like Baby do you still love me? Efffff My heart somehow died, when she asked me that, my heart feels like, I a’int even got a metaphor that, it just hurts. You know what everybody? Never mind, this poem is giving me some sort of headache Freaking 23 chromosomes she had to contribute, I guess that was a headache Audience don’t ya see that cabalistic virus trying to find its way through her iris And corrupt her perception of what the truth is. Truthfully speaking she could’ve found ah new man But where the hell was I gonna find ah new fam Why is this love so complicating? Why is this love so fascinating? Why is this love so devilishly addictive? But at the same time my love for you is naked women; I don’t want anybody to see it but you So everybody, shh while I, move out these dark clouds and bring in this beautiful sunshine Cuz that’s what you are women, you are my sunshine Did you not hear me, through this sadistic paradigm? This prison told me not to forgive you, but somehow you’re not on borderline Those sharp needles, somehow never touched my spine, you broke through that self- interest, and came just in time So I swear God, Cuz I actually could swear to God, through this pain, through this rain, and through this vain, I will reach to the light And I’ll shout your name mom, I still love you