Defeated
My soul was broken and battered
The pieces of who I am left scattered
For years I battled to find the real me
With pain written on my face for all to see
Addiction is an affliction
And it makes peace just fiction
Snow rains on my heart
In a world that tries to rip it apart
So just know I have no plan
When I come to you a broken man
My eyes are full of tears
And my heart is full of fears
Will I ever find out who I truly am
Or continue living this sham
In the face of a world that doesn't give a damn
I'm just God's lost lamb
I just want to feel like I matter
But if I was run over and a blood splatter
Would anyone see the person I yearned to be
Or is death all that can set me free
My heart is black as coal
But genuine love could make me whole
But I don't deserve it
So it leaves me in a fit
Life's silence is the real answer
After two decades maybe I am the cancer
Maybe I am a villain to be hated
But was that truly always fated
I'm so tired of trying
I'm so tired of crying
My will to live is frying
And perhaps dying
My nights are filled with nightmares
And it feels like nobody cares
I lost so much along the way
And I'll be honest I'm not okay
When death seems like bliss
I await the Grim Reaper's kiss
Life is a raw deal
And nothing seems real
Copyright © Christopher Goss | Year Posted 2023
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