Defeat and Redemption

No man is an island they say Still, amidst this crowd and noise I feel lonely I badly want someone to talk to But words don’t come easy Millions of things are running in my head But my lips find it hard to utter As I tossed and turned in my bed Also wondering what really matters I try to find the courage to fight Trying to tell myself “It’s gonna be all right” Hoping in time everything will be okay But in the end, loneliness still finds me In this eerie and cold prison Darkness is my constant companion And that loud voice that becomes my friend It keeps telling me “I’m beyond broken which nobody can ever mend” It’s a daily reminder of a failure that I am That I have no choice, not even a chance And redemption is something I cannot hold with my hand And I should just keep doing this silly dance I want to get out but I feel weak I’m getting used to this losing streak Should I give up and stop struggling? Should I continue to put on a mask that’s laughing? My head feels light as my chest feels heavy No voice came out as I cry for help. “Please... somebody!” I feel so helpless as this darkness envelops me And let the monster in my head consumes me slowly From this ongoing battle I want to be free From this pain, this chaos, and this misery And so I kneel down, before you I humbly pray "My GOD, I have forgotten you. I was proud, forgive me.” _______________END_____________ Message from the author: Whatever you're going through right now. Know that you are not alone. u Surrender everything to Him and He will help you win your battle. Trust that, this too shall pass and you will come out victoriously in the end. God bless you :-) <3 <3 <3