Decaying As I Wander On His Road
Got caught in a shimmering, glimmering summer haze
Gone through anxiety and hallucinations — hate this phase
Don’t discard me when I’m trekking this road
This road of God’s abode…I admire and abide in it — He’s my joyous ode
I’m going through this heaven in the hellish world I live in
I can’t even speak, having no words in mind; losing my mind — how have you been?
I’m bruising bewilderment and replacing it with the scars of the past wisdom I cherish most
Living life laid back in the Arizona coast
Shallow heart, can you beat some more?
Shallow breathing, can you breathe to the core?
Swallow your pride and you’re on life’s ride all over again
I have tried to move my tiresome soul and I’m a poet without his pen
Bound to the chains of catastrophe
Where I can never be free, truly free
I hope I can be close to you
Through thick and thin…
Ricocheting and feeling blue
Deep down within, within
But, I’m decaying…decaying…decaying…
Fallen prey to a lack of praying…
Wanted to be extremely needed
Gone away with the breeze of yesteryears of so many cheers
My garden has been weeded
Don’t discard me when trekking the road of my endless tears
I have mixed emotions
Hitting me like waves of the oceans
In my mind’s eye
That, I can’t deny
But, I’m decaying…decaying…decaying…
Fallen prey to a lack of praying…
Release me, relieve me
Free me, that’s my only plea
Catastrophe flies by
Commotion is a mere goodbye
Now, peace is sown with those who make peace
Now, it is shown that you’re not a bicycle with grease
You’re a pineapple without its stem
You’re a vineyard without its wine
You’re a necklace without its gem
Wishing and praying for love divine
My one and only has gone astray
She has gone awry this shining day
Well done, wisdom in my headspace
You’ve done your grace, your grace
You’re the sweat and grimace to my face
I have to keep pace in life’s difficult race
I don’t have to belong to have fun
Let this wickedly wonderful day begin
Waiting for the day to be truly done
Deep down within, deep down within
But, I’m decaying…decaying…decaying…
Fallen prey to a lack of praying…
If I can’t be with you,
I’d be full of rue…who knew…
I’d end up feeling lonely
Grief and relief is temporary
But, I’m decaying…decaying…decaying…
Fallen prey to a lack of praying…
Don’t desert me in the desert of lies
I want to hello your goodbyes, byes
How time flies, how time flies by
As long as I try, I’ll try not to cry
I’m stronger than I realize
Sorry for my lows and highs
Power is in my grasp now…desire is a welcome bow to my show of shamelessness
I’m a sunflower in the sun after a replapse somehow and I’m feeling delirium and happiness
But, I’m decaying…decaying…decaying…
Fallen prey to a lack of praying…
Don’t discard me
I am just a man who wants love from above
Longing to be free
I am just a man who needs to take wing like a dove
But, I’m decaying…decaying…decaying…
Fallen prey to a lack of praying…
Understand that I’m a butterfly out of his cocoon
Even after the afternoon, even after a monsoon
But, I’m decaying…decaying…decaying…
Fallen prey to a lack of praying…
Thoughts of anguish replaying…
In my brain train…
All in vain…
All in the drain…
But, what comes down must come up!
And I’m surely not the only one decaying as I wander on His narrow pathway
Just don’t watch me seek prey like a predator of Decay…decaying day by day…
I have fallen victim to shame…
But, I’m not one to blame..
Shame just came out of the blue…
It gave me you on my mind of rue
Copyright © J.W. Earnings | Year Posted 2023
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