Death By a Shadow of Despair

Darkness clouds my mind like a shadow of despair My soul escapes me swiftly like a running mare Galloping into the night, I’m left not the same My thoughts elude me yet I track them like madness I pursue an empty dream to save who I am Hoping sheer willpower will remove the blankness Darkness clouds my mind like a shadow of despair A black hole which could suck me out of existence this ailment which inflicts me, I cannot repair Like the devils hand laying its influence Prayer cannot save my soul from the nothingness I will be erased from existence regardless Darkness clouds my mind like a shadow of despair It's into my brain like nothing to compare Forget a word; I’m left to ponder what it was Repeat this word; it is a fate not to applause Forget a face and I will feel miserable Remembering all that I was, I am unable Darkness clouds my mind like a shadow of despair Time has become an enemy I can't destroy A trap set deep inside me, ready to ensnare I have not the means to fight or the will to ploy Only this emotion coming out like a blast I want this feeling of pride to become my last Darkness clouds my mind like a shadow of despair Memories fading, I feel like pulling my hair What shall I become, a puppet cut from his string I do not wish to have this life any longer The tension present, ready to burst like a spring What must be done to rid me of this forever? Darkness clouds my mind like a shadow of despair This veil that cannot be lifted, I must beware The danger to lose myself becoming too great I must end my life so to determine my fate Before I become lost and forget this notion To condemn myself might bring about redemption Darkness clouds my mind like a shadow of despair I stare death in its face, it's not the least bit fare What awaits me in after life, I cannot say Yet I must believe that death is the solution It is like a song I have chosen to play I must dance forward, leaving my bones to ashen Darkness clouds my mind like a shadow of despair As to how much I forgot, I’m left unaware I have given up on the life I could not save Already I can smell the damp earth of my grave I can only judge the moment ripe for my death As I stare at the sky one last time, one last breath Darkness clouds my mind like a shadow of despair I brave death so I may feel what its like to fly This will be the last time I forget, I swear I will find my freedom as I soar through the sky As I stare down the cliff, the perch of my demise Joy enters my hearth, for I have found my solace