Death By a Shadow of Despair
Darkness clouds my mind like a shadow of despair
My soul escapes me swiftly like a running mare
Galloping into the night, I’m left not the same
My thoughts elude me yet I track them like madness
I pursue an empty dream to save who I am
Hoping sheer willpower will remove the blankness
Darkness clouds my mind like a shadow of despair
A black hole which could suck me out of existence
this ailment which inflicts me, I cannot repair
Like the devils hand laying its influence
Prayer cannot save my soul from the nothingness
I will be erased from existence regardless
Darkness clouds my mind like a shadow of despair
It's into my brain like nothing to compare
Forget a word; I’m left to ponder what it was
Repeat this word; it is a fate not to applause
Forget a face and I will feel miserable
Remembering all that I was, I am unable
Darkness clouds my mind like a shadow of despair
Time has become an enemy I can't destroy
A trap set deep inside me, ready to ensnare
I have not the means to fight or the will to ploy
Only this emotion coming out like a blast
I want this feeling of pride to become my last
Darkness clouds my mind like a shadow of despair
Memories fading, I feel like pulling my hair
What shall I become, a puppet cut from his string
I do not wish to have this life any longer
The tension present, ready to burst like a spring
What must be done to rid me of this forever?
Darkness clouds my mind like a shadow of despair
This veil that cannot be lifted, I must beware
The danger to lose myself becoming too great
I must end my life so to determine my fate
Before I become lost and forget this notion
To condemn myself might bring about redemption
Darkness clouds my mind like a shadow of despair
I stare death in its face, it's not the least bit fare
What awaits me in after life, I cannot say
Yet I must believe that death is the solution
It is like a song I have chosen to play
I must dance forward, leaving my bones to ashen
Darkness clouds my mind like a shadow of despair
As to how much I forgot, I’m left unaware
I have given up on the life I could not save
Already I can smell the damp earth of my grave
I can only judge the moment ripe for my death
As I stare at the sky one last time, one last breath
Darkness clouds my mind like a shadow of despair
I brave death so I may feel what its like to fly
This will be the last time I forget, I swear
I will find my freedom as I soar through the sky
As I stare down the cliff, the perch of my demise
Joy enters my hearth, for I have found my solace
Copyright © Jean-Michel Aucoin | Year Posted 2009
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