Dear Dad

I wish heaven had a telephone Or a free hour for visitors Where we can talk to our deceased again Then maybe I will be relieved And my broken heart will be at ease I don't know how it felt when you were around Because I was just an innocent, mindless infant When death confiscated you away from us But I can tell it from mom's piteous eyes That you were a loving and a caring man Mom really miss you very much With tearful eyes, she always talk about you Sincere, ambitious and vibrant you were She sometimes even call me by your name Apparently I badly remind her of you Growing up fatherless in this fierce world Is like a sheep in the forest on a stormy day Lost, bitter and hopeless Like the sky without the sun, stars and the moons Dark, incomplete and insecure Why did you go so soon dad? Why were you not strong to hold on? If not for mom, why did you not live longer? Longer for me, Esther or the unborn baby Johanna Why? Why? Why? All this questions I am asking Nobody can play the role you abandoned You were supposed to give us fatherly love All you did is exploited our right to have a father And left the family with a whopping gap Which nobody else, but only you can fill But I know it is all God's will And that is why I pray every night For your soul to find peace with God I pray that one day we will reunite again And be together as a family in heaven