Darkness Surrounds Me

Darkness surrounds me; I knew better to accept meaningless invites, I was trying to be a better person; listening, respecting myself knowing who I am. It all sounds good until darkness comes to you, knowing you never had any efforts to change; then a different story unfold. Lost boundless, emotions tossed aside completely forgotten about. What was it about in the beginning? Life? Then what changed? I work hard not to forget my battles though the old hateful, mean me still want to clash with who I am now. Knuckles battered and bruised fighting my own demons; just won’t let past actions go. Struggled with change to improve who I am. Glory days faded, so many people weren’t strong enough to make it. Held on to meaningless things waiting for a sure win in several losing situations; Minds not open or clear enough, hoping for something better doesn’t make your dreams come true. You can’t believe that theory about the green grass on the other side of the fence. Doesn’t take much to up keep fake grass with fake meaningless people who never been through anything to understand your struggles. You were sold, told lies to be manipulate over and over. Trying something new when it really wasn’t you. Drunk driving in the wrong lanes in search for short cuts that doesn’t exists in life. Fighting against things where there wasn’t any need. There is a right or wrong way to love someone, what’s love when you never learned to love yourself? You were the most beautiful thing in the world, until you allow them to change you. Blinded by hateful words to entice an unknown struggle; knowing the pain may be too much to bear, caring could be a little too much. Touching; far from the reach of anyone who wanted to try something different, other than hating themselves. I’m in no need for negative issues, you’re trying to explain to me about your life story with situations that you could change a long time ago. I’m not trying to solve anyone’s life puzzles. Remain comfortable in your own shadows. I’m vivid in this society but who am I to judge? My eyes, my mind have been opened for a while now though I’m surrounded by the darkness and by people who have locked themselves away, blind not even willing to see the truth.