Damaged
Damaged
I try to love others,
With the hope of loving myself.
I cry when alone,
Because I feel so unloved.
My heart is bleeding, torn
Lost in unclear emotions.
I pretend to be happy to get by,
So that the world sees a star trying to shine.
I try to gleam but my moods confuse everyone,
My heart has lost its pigment to pain;
Trying to give out the little love I once had,
Like a mendicant, I entreat with the world to love me.
How sad it is, feeling like a nobody,
Always trying to push everyone away.
Yet I strongly need someone next to me,
Lost in my own body praying for something I don't even know of.
Every night sleeping asking myself questions,
They call me a mad poet, for I always feel like dying.
Not because I want to but because I feel like it's a need,
A solution to my emotional devastation and pain.
Poetry trying to give me a solid reason to try,
To try and strive for a better future yet I ask why?
Not knowing who I am anymore since I lost myself to you,
You broke me down into pieces I can't even figure out.
I'm a complicated puzzle you can't solve,
Even though I am trying to mend myself together.
I'm still much of a wreck trying to find the end of the tunnel,
Because I feel so bleak and tortured.
My tears have run out and my cheeks are dry,
All I want is just to die because it's not easy being me.
Life as hard as a piece of diamond,
Of course, I do pray 4 times a day bu,t it keeps getting darker.
God, please hear my prayers before I give up,
Help me oh Lord before I quit.
Because this pain I'm in is overwhelming my body,
My heart always beating endlessly a drum.
I feel like a damaged like a mirror,
Pieces can be brought together but never the same beauty.
I'm molested by the pain I face every day,
Yet my body can no longer sustain the pressure.
Despite all this torture I still smile,
Pretending that everything is fine with me.
Telling lies to the world that nothing is wrong with me,
Always around my friends with depression and anxiety
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