Daddy Dearest

Nothing is the same anymore,
I have yet to see what good
You're visit really was. The only 
Thing you've caused is pain. 

I don't care if it's your blood
That gave me life, I want nothing 
To do with you, as you claimed
The same in the past years.

I was nothing but an 
Inconvenience to you.
A little girl can stop 
A hard partying man cold.

It wasn't you who taught me
The ways of life, you weren't the
One who showed me what
A true father is.

No, why even bother wasting
My time thinking about you?
You're not worth the fleeting
Seconds that you pass in my mind.

I know of what you did to Mum,
I know about the drugs,
I know about the anger
You've felt towards me for ruining your life.

You can lie to me, say you 
Love me, that I'm your daughter, 
I have to love you. But think, why should
I give up my happiness?

To acknowledge you would simply 
Be the final pin in my heart, I knew
I was messed up before, and
There's nothing you can do to make it any better.

You're not on my list when it 
Comes to family, I don't care that 
You're trying to say you love me,
Where were you when I needed you?

When I needed someone to lean
On, someone to catch my tears? Those
Tears dried long ago. Sorry,
You missed your chance to change.

Karma burns terribly, I hope you 
Can see that now.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2012

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Mitchell Avatar
July 1, 2012 at 10:56 PM
Its really sad that your parents werent better to you, im sorry! Great poem!
Brown Avatar
April 15, 2012 at 2:42 PM
Congratulations on our poetry being featured this week Heaven. Love, Carol
Sims Avatar
March 26, 2012 at 2:04 PM
I have the same feelings if not worse when it comes to the relationship with my father. We never really had a real father daughter relationship anyway. It seems you may have suffered more than me cause I never cared about him like he never cared about me. I don't know you but, I'm glad that you are being a survivor and is able to write poetry about it. Keep your head up lady!
A   Avatar
March 26, 2012 at 10:28 AM
Heaven, this is very sad and emotional .... I can not even begin to imagine ..having so much resentment towards my dad... he is my second world... on the other hand I see where you are coming from. I hate my brothers with a passion no one will believe .. ... enjoyed, have yourself a wonderful day~luv*PD :-)
Grisetti Avatar
March 26, 2012 at 10:12 AM
Very deeply moving and touched me in my heart. The feeling of abandonment is strong. Very well written.
Goodson Avatar
March 26, 2012 at 10:00 AM
WOW! such vivid insight and image to pain. I trust time will heal such and strengthen such courage.
Lorenz Avatar
March 26, 2012 at 10:44 AM
One can only hope that to be true.
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