Sandra Adams Poet Acrostic

Cutters

catastasis of emotions spiral down
until the pain magnifies itself 
too hard to breathe, she takes a knife
touches it against her flesh, slices deep
emotions bleed themselves dry
release the pain from within
she puts on her fake smile and hides the deed





(inspired by a conversation with Timothy Hicks, I know much about that topic because that was me at the age of 10, when my grandmother died and i was forced to be at home, unloved...a cinderella as my God parents called me...I learned how to bleed in poetry as a release, but cutting is an actual disease and they do not know how to release the pain, the pain of the cut releases something that makes them feel good...temporarily, no one ever knows the wounds, they hide them well behind layers of clothes and fake smiles!)

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Gordon Mcconnell June 11, 2019 at 3:41 PM Such a fine piece Sandra showing the real reality of such a sad situation. This is well penned with great imagery and insight.

Andrea Dietrich April 27, 2019 at 7:15 PM back again to say, Miss you!

James Marshall Goff September 19, 2017 at 11:16 PM Intense...fell in hard...well done

Richard Lamoureux February 13, 2017 at 10:32 AM I wrote a poem tiled The Ripping which is in a similar Vein. This is very impactful.

Richard Lamoureux December 23, 2016 at 9:39 AM Merry Christmas, hugs Rick.

Len Gasun October 7, 2016 at 1:29 AM A deep and moving poem my dear friend, Sandra. Thanks for sharing this wonderful write. Hope you're well. Also stopping by here to greet you, Happy Birthday and wishing you the best in life. love lots and hugs, Leonora

Andrea Dietrich April 16, 2016 at 8:03 PM Sandra, I really miss you. Please email me sometime, will you?

Arthur Vaso March 26, 2016 at 11:29 PM I came by to read this once again! Very powerful write!

Poet Destroyer A March 10, 2016 at 12:54 AM Deep write Sandra, I can't say I can relate to your story. But, I once knew a girl who cut herself. She once told me it helps where others would not. Up to this day, I will never know what she meant. I hope all is better for you now... Sending you hugs... Love LINDA

Daver Austin March 1, 2016 at 1:34 PM It seems with the emotional cases everything is fake. I can relate. daver

Karen Anglesey February 28, 2016 at 11:46 AM A family member had done this when she was a teenager. I did not know about it until years later. I can't imagine being able to keep such a painful secret. So sad and shocking when it comes to light.

Hannington Mumo February 24, 2016 at 6:39 PM An emotionally charged piece. Palpably engaging...7++

Hannington Mumo February 24, 2016 at 6:38 PM An emotionally charged piece. Palpably engaging...7++

Harry Horsman February 24, 2016 at 3:55 PM Very emotional and so deep yet complete and wonderful poetry.

Arthur Vaso February 23, 2016 at 10:00 PM I was sure from the title, and as I read I can feel the pain, I know all about fake smiles, I would give my all to make all smiles truly heart felt! Great poem!

Timothy Hicks February 22, 2016 at 4:41 PM Well I hope I didn't drudge up too many painful emotions by my comment, Sandra. In any case, thanks for giving me more info about this topic, and what people go through with this ... I've never really been around it. I am happy that you have found maybe something that's a healthier outlet. Kind regards - Tim.

Elaine George February 22, 2016 at 2:50 AM Yes!! There was another girl - fantastic free verse writer, who used to write here at the soup. She too had suffered from that disease. Poetry helped her too. Writing has always been my best medicine for what ever ales me. Great writing, Sandra.

Carol B. February 21, 2016 at 2:07 PM This poem really touched me. So sorry for the pain you endured. Sandra Adams February 21, 2016 at 8:55 PM thank you Carol...i was a mere child, it shaped me into who i am today though :)

Andrea Dietrich February 21, 2016 at 12:32 PM You did well with this one, Sandra. I have heard of this disease too. I'm glad to know you released through poetry and not the physical way. YIKES. It might feel good at the moment.But the scars and after pain must be horrible. Sandra Adams February 21, 2016 at 12:43 PM writing is much less painful. though you don't really feel the pain of the blade at first...i have few scars probably because i was so young! I started running off and hiding in trees, or meadows, in the woods and near the stream, admiring nature and trying to see beauty in everything...and then my muse was born! Maybe that's why nature is often in my writings and my muse is strongest when my emotions are out of whack...Hugs :)

Paul Callus February 21, 2016 at 12:19 PM External pain serving as a release of internal pain; others go even further with tragic results. I hope that whoever reads this and is in such a situation will realize that help is available. Very touching, Sandra! ~ Regards // paul Sandra Adams February 21, 2016 at 12:24 PM thankfully most cutters don't go as far as suicide, but some people do go further to end the pain...i have been touched by many who have ended their lives at young ages, as i am sure most people have! Hugs