Cursed

I do believe I have a curse It has been around since before my birth And believe you me, nothing is worse Than this big black cloud I call my curse; Let me explain, and maybe you will see How I’ve come to my conclusion, of the cloud above me, For nothing is more confusing in this life Than why all moments are filled with strife; Long ago, at my moment of birth I think this was the start of the curse, For my cord was wrapped around my neck so tight I about lost my life, before I had that first sight Then as life goes on, and childhood began That damned curse, strikes again Abused so early, at such a young age Lost my innocence, before I was eight Then the years, just passed me by Always feeling bottled up inside By the time I was ten, I started to pray Pray for the Lord, to save me one day This was odd, and strange to me For God wasn’t mentioned in our home you see My father was cruel, and never believed, Nor had faith in God, or the powers that be At the age of twelve, I’d had enough That curse had a way of making things rough; But as time went on, and I prayed ever more It wasn’t long, until I had enough faith for war So I started fighting back, in my own way But that way was wrong, I see plainly today For in rebellion, I had found sin And that cloud hovered over once again; The trouble I’ve seen and things that I’ve endured Have made me hard, and not easily lured But in those days, before my mind was ripe All I could do was live my life But one thing I’ve learned from all of the hell Is we do have a God, and this I can tell For no matter what the curse throws my way I’m here, and sane, and able to say; I know the Lord is there, and I know He cares For every cloud that’s hovered, He’s had a miracle to share And there isn’t a thing in my past I would change For if things would‘ve been different, then I wouldn’t be the same; Because of all I have suffered, I’ve gained insight and wisdom And have learned that I must always keep my Faith in Him He won’t desert me, nor will He let me be For in this scheme of life, He has a Plan you see One that is worked especially for thee; The curse in my life, that black cloud above Was not a gift filled with His love, But he will take that cloud, and the silver lining He will install And help me gain strength and knowledge from it all As long as there is Hope, and I remember to pray He will get me through whatever this curse throws my way