Cure for Me

I remember when The stars weren't my own I remember when Sad stories of a real soul I remember when We used to play pretend My future, my escape Dream of another time or place What shall become of me? Only doubt What did I see? Nothing, no belief I know now. Her sorrows aren't unheard Her tears water my soul Gave way to a new being Made new, now whole Her intelligence set her back Her doubts supported by lack So little But love Such lack But love Why did she love? Disgustingly sorrowful A pitiful being But no harp on her Seeing is believing Now I appreciate the gains I will never fault her Because when it rains I hold her umbrella Might let it go when she cries Her peace, disturbed Tears blending out of sight She brought me here Her light was dim She had little to give But she gave it all Why? Why provide when your well runs dry? Why? Why give when you can barely stay alive? Why? Maybe the tables could turn Karma, God, Jesus, and the like Buddha, Confucius, reverse her fortune But there was a block A hold Unknown truths, stories untold Lack of trust Lack of care She knew, sadly No one was there Her heart stayed crushed Each day, she hoped to restored it whole Each day she'd come home Stories thoroughly old Tired, old, tired, old tired LET ME OUT she'd scream [ Where is her mind? ] She'd find herself wallowing in grief grades, grades, grades friends, friends, friends am i the weirdo am i the problem what do i do how do i change find a way find a way FIND A WAY MAKE THE CHANGE MAKE ME BETTER CHANGE MY LIFE I CANT STAY LIKE THIS FOREVER someone save me... locked in a box she had the key born trapped What shall become of me? I know now. I don't stand proud. I stand knowing. I proudly show it. Abundance, unfathomable Love? Insurmountable The lack she felt, reversed Wishing for a hearse I lifted the curse Now I sit, fully imearsed I live in the moment Authentically I live for myself Unapoligetically I live. I live. I want to live. The will never take that from me. I want to live. Now what become of me? Let's see :)))