Coversations With God

Staring at two white shells I am wondering on what should ones mind dwell Saying goodbye to mama wasn't easy neither was it easy to say hello to you GOD I've been so loud with not being blamed I couldn't see my pride before the fall I am so vain I just couldn't see the stain being cynical was suppose to bring relief to the pain smiling should have brought sunshine after the rain but crying on the inside of me has stolen my sanity thoughts of the end of the line has cross my mind reality wasn't really a good friend of mine while these crocodile tears gave new life to a lie my wife could see this fool is about to die so she threw a prayer out to YOU for me I didn't see YOU coming in fact I didn't see YOU in truth now I am standing at the edge of my youth at the edge just slipping and lost why are YOU even concerned with me the one who cried wolf was in bigger need than me I am just a disabled prick thinking of eating away at my guilt guilt of shelfisness,pride,stubborness and vanity why didn't YOU wipe me out already I am just dust YOU have the whole world in your hands no need to listen to my petty demands just let me sink in the quick sands standing at the cross roads and it's getting lonely I miss being really happy it's like real ice-cream with a choc flake it will melt away all the hurt for sure sitting it just moved past three in the morning what ghastly hour to still be awake conversations with GOD in it I gladly partake only HE can spot a brother who is for real from a fake...