Could You Hear Me?

Ignorant questions you asked While requesting in return intelligent answers A pillow of tears I cried But only for awhile Yet instead my heart was beating like a hammer beats a nail And I was slowly decreasing like a paper being filed Into shelter I would hide Behind doors I cried Over the phone I denied And inside I died As if hanging up in my face weren't enough You left me no choice, but to fall asleep with your Thoughtless and careless words The constant need to be in control of everything and everyone I closed my eyes to hold back those tears Those tears that were trying so desperately to break through But steadily they came running down my face Like I was pouring water down a drain But did you hear me That language that I spoke I was talking out loud to all the distant ears I begged you to lower your voice But you were to busy screaming at me to hear You see I constantly found myself apologizing to you Not believing that I had a right to my own opinion And that I had a right to be loved and respected I cursed at times, You kept me mad And then most days you left me sad But could you hear me Could you take my point of view for once After all that was said and done My heart was aching and my soul was breaking A little attention, Like a baby crying out for its mother Is all I asked of you Only to hear you speak your truth of belief And then hang up in my face with a gasp of relief As if my voice was killing you When I defended myself , I never knew what I would face Never knew how you'd react, But I was acting on faith So I took that leap of faith, I didn't know what else to do But thank God I found the courage to stand up to you You made it seem like we were in some game And half time conversations is all you could spare Yet like a mother in the midst of labor I bared all the pain, You couldn't bare But I had to speak out My silence had to be broken Words shattered at that moment Shock encountered ones face Something that never happened before I would not pretend, That all was well But you weren't listening to me, I was talking to myself When I poured out my heart to you sincerely You belittled me, cursed me, degraded and ignored me Picked and devoured me like I was poultry You took me through so much misery You see this lonely faucet, Only runs so deep But I found the strength to break free, finally I wanted to be friends but I remember too clearly Just how it was in the past, When you couldn't hear me