Could I Have

Should i have said something Did I miss a memory In this hierarchy Did I understand On the other hand was I misunderstood .. Was that an opportunity That's the reality? Was I supposed to help .. Was I suppose to react Was I supposed to persuade ... Was I supposed to be afriaid worried or dounted .. Why am I now this way , Decision went wrong ? Here begins the troublesome song ... The inorder hits Why do my thoughts decay Why can't I order them and be okay all a could have should have mess ... I need to stop the is an instant cress , Cant think I want to think i need to study I need to Be there I need to relax and need to be up this moment is here , but why isnt it the other moment now what have I done , Can i reverse this , Can I repair Why am I asking so many Questions Its all in my head .... To find the rinse of inspirational peace .... , I need to hold up , Theres a lot on. Smile Awareness inhale SO many things to take note of and Cant obey it all , Its all a trace, left behind what do I note what do I not, How do I remember the moment.. But kill myself over remembering the unremembered... Time still is here , I write in these simple words , I need to get back , wheres it gone , there is a puddle and there everything sinks How do I dive and get it up , to be assosiated with something else How do I know all I said here is not false? Whats all the cause I need to focus I need .... optimus Now its all a clear desk , As I let go , the tribe is at rest Cant it be accepted in what is happening ... Im too affected , Please , stop the unpredicted gest ,