Contradictions Hypocrite

Contradictions hypocrite There’s a big black hole where my heart should be And it’s killing me! Just to be me. I try to change and remove the pain, But it’s a part of me now; my soul is stained. I need to love, but I don’t want to talk. I need you to love me, but who loves a dork? I hate myself for needing your help, So I won’t put you through this too, for this is my own Hell. I am contradictions hypocrite, And I am constantly hit by emotional baggage. Put me out of my misery, please! I just cannot manage, To just find the tiniest speck of joy, Or a reason to believe. The fearful boy who wants to love, But the glass will never ever be even half-full. It’s life half-empty permanently; Dead skies up above. No ray of light shines down on me. Just endless self-torture, no more pity; I cannot take it anymore. I cannot stand to tell you the truth, so I let you fall. (C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.