Contagious Insomnia

I've not been sleeping well since early November, about the time Donald Trump was not just nominated by Republican Christian White Male Dominant Evangelical Christians, in some unholy alliance with fundamentalist rabid Roman Right to Define Which Lives Matter Most Catholics, but actually elected their own AntiChrist President of these DisAssembling States of natural-spiritual nondualist moral laws and ethics and aesthetics and constitutions for democratic ethical health and aesthetic trusting happiness and economic sacred ecologicalEarth prosperity. I often wake up to a day I dread and fear to hear even more atrociously bad news, domestic and international, local and global, economic with political Winlose Climate Gamesmanship. But, i'm also afraid to sleep at night, anxious and worried about our children's drying up and wasting further away prospects for any future at all as a humane cooperative developing species rather than anthro-survivalist parasites rabidly infesting a thoroughly secularized and commodified and de-natured Earth, former habitat for Eden, Creator God's original plan, original intent, original meaning and purpose, original love and health of regenerativity. So, I frequently wake up, as I have this July 4th morning, really pissed off at Republican Christian Evangelicals for continuing to live in denial of their self-fulfilling prophecy, like Lot's wife looking back toward Sodom and Gomorrah one last post-millennial time to elect your long-feared AntiChristian CEO with one hand on the world's nuclear annihilation switch and the other hand up North Korea's and China's and Russia's elitist asses and assets, if he could he would even though he knows he really shouldn't. I did learn yesterday that almost half of Republicans who elected Trump are showing early signs of remorse, of sorrow for your denial sins of sexist and racist and capitalist over-investment, omitting anything akin to natural-spiritual mindfulness of your own adolescent through maturation mental-spiritual health issues and challenges and opportunities to evolve co-operative grace with gratitude, LeftBrain strength with RightBrain integrity of love. I am hoping, and trying to trust, grow in faith, that the half of Republican electors of Trump, and other similar Anti-All-Climates-Of-Health Matter politicians, now experiencing remorse, is more likely the evangelical Christian and Catholic laity half, also having trouble sleeping at night, worried about lack of ecopolitical co-investment in anything resembling Earth as Eden for our natural and spiritual grandkids, extending Earth-Eden Habitat families, rather than aborting them. If I were you, believing Christian fundamental-patriarchal as you do, rather than continuing to live in denial of the hell on Earth we have served up to the grandkids, I would repent and spank myself on behalf of those same grandkids who would righteously spank us if they economically and politically could reverse time a mere generation or two from now, this day, celebrating our interdependent immigrant waves for independent Not Yet Bought and Sold Commodity Days and OverExtended NightMare Competing Nights, whispering horsepowers free and bought and sold pirated and prayed for, rented and outright autonomously purchased of and for Earth's sacred Eden re-investment.