Confusion Muddled With Hate

Devils N My Head.. Every Time Im Alone All I Wanna Do Is Cry.. I Hate My Life So Much, Nd I Know Im Not The Only One Who Gots It Bad, Nd I Know Other People Have It Worse.. But Really Wtf Did I Do To Deserve Any Of It?. I'm Not Trying To Pity Myself Really Im Not, Im Just Trynna Understand. I Just Wanna Know WHY ME!? Didn't I Deserve A  Normal Loving Family? Am I Not Worthy Of Love. Haven't I Proved Enough? I Really Am Trying My Hardest, Or Am I? Okay Maybe All I'm Really Doing Is Draggin My Feet As I Walk. Can You Blame Me?  Is It Without Cause Or Reason? I Have NOTHING. Nothing To Claim, Since The Lord Of All Mighty Didnt Find Me Worthy Or Adequate To Raise My Babies, Whats Wrong With Me? I Got No Family, At Least Not Really, A Dad Who Says He Loves Me But Truly Does Not Know I Exists Or Knows One Damn Thing Abt Me.. A Mother, Who Let Her Child Be Tooken Away For  Her Own Selfish Reasons. Aghhhhhhhhhhhhh I'm  Trying My Hardest To Be Happy But These Thoughtz Get The Bettr Half Of Me Nd God Im Beggin U , Dont Take Ramo Away From Me.. If You Have A Heart Please Dont Really Cuz Thats It Im Done No More Of  Things I Love Getting Torn Away From Me.. I'll Die 1st.. By Your Hand Or Mine..