Confused and Broken

Can't analyse the type of love I feel when all I want to do is scream: "Don't die." It's not like Cancer. It just seems unreal - and, even though, sure, I've been close myself, why would I want to understand this? Yet, I do - but won't accept that suicide's okay. But, if it is, should I go that way, too? Because you just won't see another way, and I just can't face living without you.