Conflict of interest

2025.2.19 Conflict of interest. Since when did I start facing that? Why did it happen all the time? Did I have its meaning misinterpreted? Was there a term to describe, How, all of a sudden, You felt some things in life, Like they have reached the end of their lines. Every day, I struggle, pleasure or pressure, Physical or mental, medical or financial, Exhausted travelling to enjoyed playing the piano,  Attempted paying non-PBS medicines To drain my non-existing saving. Tried hard to remember the music, Ended up with headache. Used the sustain's pedals, Ended up hurting my leg's muscles. Once, I had to juggle To visit my friend in hospital, And assisted the doctors To understand his medical conditions, Or to help my mother in finishing, Her Birthday wishes wordings. For nearly two decades, I survived without money. Did I have any of it? By chance, I found this place, Since then I could relax a bit, Of the finance's issue. Where I visited and what I did there Was quite legistimate and fair, It was heaven when you had fun, But it became hell when you were done. I did quite alright until last year, I decided to give all that a miss, When I meet and spend time with you. You did not influence me nor knew anything about it. It was my own decision and There was big conflict of interest. How did it happen? Well, it gave me financial secure, Whereas I was on nine clouds, When you were around. Now everything ended, Your friendship and my finance. I did not and would not blame you. There was no obligation on your part, Purely was my personal decision. I accepted and did not regret it. Last but not least, it has happened lately, When someone promised to help me More about the Poetry website, Then he disappeared, no contact, not in person, nor on line. Therefore, everytime I logged in, First thing appeared on my screen, Was someone being an active "Follower", I had to figured out how to get around, To log in properly and ended up spending lot of time. I was wondering, if I touched the botton, "Unfollow" next to the follower's name, What would happen then? Should I just remove it and get on with it. Have I defined correctly the meaning of Conflict of Interest?