Triny Xiang Poet Free verse

Confess if I dare

Dare me to diagnose my condition?
 
I'm diagnosed with depression
Or rather does depression have me
Even the sad rain cries for me
Or do I cry because of rain

I’m bipolar type one
Or so I’ve been diagnosed
My depression tells me I’m two
Or is my mind a torrent of rain

I’m an addict to dopamine
Or does scarcity seek fullness
I’ll nosh on forbidden fruits till I’m sick
Or is giving up Eden so easy

I’m a disgruntled loner
Or does the loner keep others away 
Unable to invite patient guests in
Or am I none of these labels

I’m a crazy worker bee
Or does the hive have me
To the gulags this soldier goes
Or has Solzhenitsyn lost his queen

I am loved by a few someones
Or does someone feed my love
The unlovable embraced by a few
Or does depression dismiss them

I feel the sadness in every rain
I sense earth’s mad polarity
I am a hungry beast to a feast
I’m a lone tiger in a company of wolves
I’m loved even in my lonely Siberia 
I’m a question more than definition

Or am I the answer unfulfilled?
Or will I let love go unanswered?
Spin the bottle, hoping it's not me
I dare me to diagnose myself

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Jerry Brotherton January 20, 2024 at 5:13 PM Many hugs to you, Triny. I know that depression is like a constant roller coaster of emotions and feelings. But poetry is a great outlet to help cope.

Silent One January 20, 2024 at 2:48 AM i am sorry to hear that you have been diagnosed with this condition, there are many who suffer from this and many on here also.. Poetry is a perfect catharsis to help with these conditions.. I hope you find the help that you need and the support.. You expressed with a lot of deep and raw emotions and made it sound so poetic... Thats the beauty of poetry..

Ink Empress January 20, 2024 at 1:49 AM What a poignant and sincere write this is, about mental health and questions that come with being diagnosed, i know few loved ones diagnosed with bipolar and i know they do too wonder sometimes if they were really what they were told. I love howevrr how youv phrased your emotions here in such eloquence making your feelings flow. “ I feel the sadness in every rain “ i felt those the most and the opening as well as “ Or am I the answer unfulfilled? Or will I let love go unanswered?” Soul hitting!