College year 2 am edition

my college year has been like wasted potential i tried to talk to someone they just step back all they need is puff i need to breath the air must've been so cool lying about me to the evergreen group who was shattered by me you know i met with so many people they had their own thinking i never had a nerve to say about myself cause i think i was different got cussed by a teacher nah left him i don't care cause of him i broke the internet with group and my friendship once the thread is cutted it can't be fixed again like our friendship all i ever did was try my best to hide my queerness but you all knew then hated me for me that too i was fine with it until you said "you guys should die" damn i was trying from past years now scene 2 all changed into trauma the friends who were friends with were over now guess me and my bestfriend would roam around to collect the proof why he left her? and why i got the name of the ditcher but all did we found out is that everyone liked my bestie they hated me cause i was hanging with her i should've undertsood that it's the metality of boys who think a friend could steal their wives crushing bones and futhermore he said to pavil to stay away from me and my bestie as we're both toxic and we just walk on our own scene 3 must feel free but no started to build myself with taking HR as my subject got to learn alot by it that i loved mind reading now i left making prophecy i left all the assumption games i left even my bestie for good got friendships and heaven was i in then again back to hell when i lost another friend got into counselling she said things so bad to me and i did to her my bestie left coming to college i was finding a boyfriend and didn't found one cause of my insecurity