Clutching Shooting Stars
I wanted to believe you
when you said there was no such thing as Hell.
I wanted to believe you when you
said that pain was just an illusion
and that I could find eternity in the
the eyes of a cloudless sky;
You always said that those slowly
fading blots of light were souls
passing on to the next experience,
“Just like us.”
I found a distant comfort in that.
But I always have to feel, in the moment.
I want, so desperately, to be able to
clutch the essence of anything of substance.
And not have it yanked away by the
thunder- raucously trembling the
world behind my eyes.
So, I take my lighter and strike it.
I watch the fire dance until the heat
makes the shroud glow-
and drive it into my arm and sink
into the cradle of wretched comfort
that you must have never discovered.
I’d hate for you to see me like this.
Writhing. Laughing, on the edge.
With tears like falling stars,
almost casting shadows across
my cheeks with their haste.
This. Is the only way. I have been
able to center, my storm.
And I can never get all the clouds
to go away. But, I try. I really do.
To be, more like you.
Even though you’re just another
shooting star, casting its shadow
across my careworn visage.
A memory, that I can barely hold onto.
Burning its way into my perdition.
-James Kelley 2019
Copyright © James Kelley | Year Posted 2019
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