Christmas, and Once Again

It all began when I was four, a man of gifts was introduced into my knowledge
O' the joy that I felt, for if I but behaved a list of gifts this man would give me
And so I was on my best only to be disappointed for nothing ever did I see
My family gathered and all of my siblings ran into what the man who brought for them

Year after year I waited, waited with tears of the unknown 
My voice grew into my own personal recorder
I repeated time after time the same lines of regret and broken hope
Yet I held on to the belief that one day the man with a big beard would bring me a gift

All I wanted to was to sit around a tree in christmas time and hold my loved ones
Alone I have spent this holiday after all these years alone I spend it still
Was family not made for me? Was love not meant to wipe my tears
Why am I to my shadow? Am I to dwell until death takes me yet alone

Where is the spirit that touches the soul of christmas
Am I too alone that my christmas has gone away from me too
This eve again I shall weep in the memory that haunts my heart
Farewell world, let me sob that tomorrow christmas too shall be at my minds depth

Copyright © | Year Posted 2009



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Date: 12/21/2009 7:23:00 AM
Eduardo, is this really about you or are you sharing someone's grief? I know there are many who are experiencing these feeling and to those who are, if this is any consolation, the one in whose honor we celebrate Christmas-Our Lord, experienced loneliness at the most needy time of his life-after all the good he had done he was betrayed and when he was afraid, there was no one to console him to lift him up, even his Father watched sadly. God loves us all. Peace love and hugs, Audrey
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