Christmas

Christmas hasn’t felt the same since 2018, one big family sitting under the Christmas tree, when I still believed in magic, and I never knew the next year of my life would become tragic, opening many presents, with more missing people, it’s like they never showed up and never stayed for the sequel, come by and show your face and off they go back to their place, back home where the people fit with the letters, but sometimes I think my family ended for the better, the door was always open, but you were still behind yours, Christmas came around and I was looking at 2 doors, the smile on my face that I put on for Christmas Day, those lonely thoughts I never let get in the way, the presents I got that I was forever grateful for, the fact no one showed up at my front door, not even you no matter how much I wanted you to, every Christmas there was always a bicker, every Christmas I hoped would end quicker, I was just starting to wrap my head around the fact that nothing stays for long, but now that your gone, your favourite time of year feels wrong,