Chester, Chester

You have no idea what you've done to me the damage you have created the broken person I have become No idea how it has affected me the relationships that have been severed my self worth diminished You have no clue how much you've changed me the distorted way I view the world unable to trust, to love Clueless to how you've molded me into an inverted, confused girl struggling with doubt and rebellion You don't know how much I hate you you've destroyed what I could have been the happy, confident person I long to be Don't know how much you've hurt me nightmares and fear follow me the flashbacks occur all too often All for a little thrill a selfish need for satisfaction not taking into consideration my feelings, my resistance not realizing that I will one day be a woman scorned and guarded All for some instant gratification that didn't mean much to you the scheduled violations when no one was around the sour feeling I got in my stomach every time you touched me So all should be forgiven? my emotional trauma should just be discarded? I should move on with my life? It's not that simple I want you to feel the pain I felt I want you to hurt like I did I want tears to stream from your eyes as I've cried many nights Then and only then can I begin to heal.