Chasing My Dream

On this 3rd day of 2011 I sit and wait hoping to see you no matter how briefly. What a horrible day you've had, and you're week is shaping up to be another long, tiring challenge to your mind, emotions, spirit and body. Would that I could help build you up in all the areas of your life that need healing, but that doesn't appear to be God's plan for me in your life. So, what is His purpose for me in your life? I'd like to think I know but I don't and it hurts me not to be able to do what I want for you in your life. I seem to be left with little more ability to help you now than I had 20+ years ago and I'm still chasing my dream to live with and love you for the rest of our lives. I am so very tired of dreaming about us being together but what else can I do for now? I don't want you to stop needing me and I won't just leave you again as either of those actions would break my heart, so I'll not think of them. But my concern for you, your health and well being is so strong lately it's hard to focus on anything else. Maybe this is wrong, but taking care of you has always been part of this dream I'm still chasing minute by minute, hour by hour each and every day. I plead with God for my dream to somehow come into reality in this year of 2011.