Changed Man

I've made some mistakes but they only helped me to grow 
I allowed you to see some things I didn't want to show
I was on the playing field, but now I need a new game plan
I've been a womaniser in the past but now I'm trying to become a changed man

I say I'm okay, but it doesn't show on my face
I don't talk much, until I pick up a pen and my feelings explode on the page 
Going to club after club hoping that there's no one I know in the place 
I'm trying to stomach my own insecurities, but then more get thrown on my plate 

I've been trying to raise others up while I've been feeling low
I've got old wounds that are healing slow
I had to hold back as some people took my kindness for weakness 
I'm not even a poet, I'm just rhyming my secrets 

I haven't been the same since she broke my heart and left my world naked
I spent too much time only caring about getting girls naked
Life teaches us all different lessons
I should text this girl to tell her I miss her, but I have a new one sending me nudes with no commitment expected

Which is easier for me as I'm not expected to open up
She wants the same as me and doesn't care that I'm broken up
She doesn't care that there's things from my past that I still need to come to terms with
I cut some people off, and here I am, trying to walk over a burnt bridge

Most of my pain is internal 
Before the smoke clears, there's still a lot of emotion for me to burn through 
I'm trying to find myself but I just end up in a bigger maze
I break my own heart nightly by checking my ex girlfriend's twitter page 

Love sometimes goes wrong and there's no way to make it work 
I've been using multiple girls to replace the hurt
I'm working on myself and trying to become a better man and do different things
There's a lot of things I'm trying to change but I'll probably always still put hot sauce on my chicken wings

I've made a lot of mistakes, but they've helped me to grow
I'm revealing my insecurities and flaws that I thought I'd never show
I was on the playing field, but now I need a new game plan 
I'm working on myself to become a changed man

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