Change My Mind

I thought that i forgot what I should should do with this, I want to be able to use it, I want to be able to explore it... taste it, feel it, change it, twist it, turn it. But first I have to find out what it is, Is it worth it, Do I still have the ability to? Can it satisfy me? I'm sure I can, Does the magnitude of self-esteem show on the outside?, Is change so translucent that I've missed the mark? How can I determine the in-evident? Should I ponder on the strange and awkward moments? How does philosophy underestimate questions? Some things are not as evident as they seem right?