Cerebral Cortex of My Heart

I hold myself a prisoner A captive taciturn Unspeakable enticement still yearning Since coming of age to discern Yet never knowing Except in part The fullness to overflowing In the cerebral cortex of my heart The heart knows reason Which reason does not know Inoculated by truth a lie will weaken Like the dawn of a child in an embryo For this the battle to bring heart to speech In mind, for one to live oft' another thing dies It's the delicate balance when determined to please Suspended between fulfillment's death and the giving of life The beauty of a fractured symmetry Where thinking heart meets mind To know this elusive camaraderie Perhaps in a world in eternities time So I see myself in another life Where sorrows hold no interest A wistful smile proves transparent While intensity conveys my signet Warmth and wrath bear equal zeal But I, an antithesis in perfect balance A lonely vagrant thronged by faces Embraced by insipid attachments As honey brines by way of nectar In homes fashioned with wax Void of every ignoble stinger Known to propitiate the diffident task Thus so masked I travel still The duplicitous road yet shackled Until my tongue finds clemency From the demons my mind embattles