Cast Away

I am cast off, useless baggage as I wait like a fixture outside your door discarded and ignored. Oh, daggers of my agony! I pose a threat though I know not why as I wait outside your door. Am I seeing a dull, nameless puppet? as I’m yanked and pulled ripped and torn as I wait outside your door. For you hold the ace our grandson! the innocent one that I adore. How you tease me first you come then pull away for I cannot enter your locked, blocked door. Your house, too messy Do Not Enter! plastered outside your wretched door! Still I wait, an unwanted relic outside your impossible door. Do I hear shouts? Curses? My son and yourself you, his wife! Oh, the pestilence! a daughter by his marriage living inside that impenetrable door! I am numb, washed all over anesthetized, nothing numb and ignored waiting outside your deafening door! My presence has created a war! Jealousy is a demon that I abhor! Pit of blackness, dirge of sorrows more and more! Weary laden, I turn from your damning door besotted and forlorn as I whisper “nevermore”. Written on 2/10/2018